Noooooooooo.........

I thought I had it all sorted out.

It was going to go like this. We would be frugal and everybody would be at home and we would work it out and be happy. Ed would go back to acting and directing and in between he would be doing supply teaching.

And now, it is all up in the air again.

There is a drama school in desparate need of a head of acting and they are actively trying to get Ed to apply. They need someone so badly, whoever takes the job starts immediately. Ed is, needless to say, considering it.

It is a full time job. The school is on the other side of London so he would be living away from home all week.

I can't beleive he is even considering it. Yet I can also see how he can't let the idea go without looking at it carefully.

If he is seriously considering it then we have to seriously consider moving. I don't think I can see him surviving a whole week away from home when two nights has been so difficult. I hate HATE the idea of moving away from my family. We are all within 15 miles of each other and all the cousins love each other and get so much from growing up together. To move away from schools we are comfortable with and friends and everything else. It is so daunting.

So - back to being a good wife. Support stockings and big girl knickers on. I am going to be needing them!